Diary of an addict, 25 July 2007
Mood:
caffeinated
Now Playing: Bad Religion-Against The Grain
Topic: Spoken Word
When I woke up this morning, I found the light peaking through the blinds in my window, drenching my face with the sun. Could it be that God forgave me and granted me another day, or is it my destiny to live forever? Some are destined for success and others wake up to a pile of bricks that lay the framework of their life, each one with a word stamped on it and when put together, creates a universal, irreversible paradox. As I rummaged through the bricks I grabbed the first one I saw. In bold letters it read "you". People say that in order for you to be happy you must first take care of you. I decided to place the "you" brick right next to the "live" brick. For some reason their shapes didn't fit very well. Like a laundry basket filled with socks and none of them match, you finally decide to tip the basket over and start back at one, giving each one it's match. Before you know it, all of the socks have their match and you have spent your time constructively. I kept trying to match my "you" brick with numerous other bricks, such as "love" and "day" but they just didn't fit.
So there I sat, helplessly trying to put together these damn bricks. For over an hour I kept doing the same thing over and over again until my phone rang. By the time I had jumped up to answer the phone, I mistakenly kicked over my mess. I was not anxious to talk on the phone at all. I wanted so desperately to get back to my mess. Whether the bricks fit or not didn't concern me right away. It was my mess and I was determined to continue working on it. I hung up the phone and slowly walked over to my project. By now I was irritated. Why didn't my bricks fit? Why was it that I was so forceful? Why didn't I ask for help when I was on the phone? Until I know the answers, I suppose my bricks won't ever fit. Maybe I should just grab one brick at a time and look forward to the sun coming out tomorrow morning.
Posted by thechewycheek
at 9:27 AM CDT
Updated: Monday, 18 August 2008 9:30 AM CDT